To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that prisoner was you.

― Lewis B. Smedes, author and theologian
Caine would want
us to forgive. I forgive myself for thinking I could have stopped or changed an outcome out of my reach, I forgive Caine for making a choice that would end in a consequence that can not be taken back. I forgive the situation. I let it all go to the universe and will make my path my own, but will honor Caine and all those that help me grow into the person I am becoming! Thank you my son for all you have taught and all you continue to teach me. Thanks to all of you that walk along my side and support me when I am feeling low, support me when I feel good, and help me find forgiveness!

High Rockies Harm Reduction 

This is such an important resource in our valley! Thank you Maggie for all that  you are doing to educate the community for Narcan training, needle pick up/disposal, and fentanyl testing! 

If you are struggling with addiction, there is no shame, there is help for you when you are ready, and resources to prevent you from overdosing.

If you need a resource please see the link on this site to connect you to the resource.

Grief & Holidays Continued

 More Links for Holiday Grief:

How to Help a Friend Who's Grieving During the Holidays

  • Know the signs. The first holiday season after my father died, I felt something like an orphan. ...
  • Show Up. While it's difficult to witness someone else's pain, just being present goes a long way. ...
  • Help with the "small stuff". ...
  • Be direct. ...
  • Know what not to do. ...
  • Remember to protect yourself, too

Grief and the Holidays

 I can feel the holiday season creeping up on me and the emotions are changing. Losing a child for me, took all holiday "happy, merry, cheerful" away so I prefer to do different things for the holidays if possible without taking away from others in the family. 

Here is a website that gives good insight to grief and the holidays.

Thanksgiving is a holiday that the family gets together to visit, share good food, stories, and the men usually watch football and women are tirelessly tending to the turkey and the food. We eat, more like gorge ourselves, eat pie, and drink more than we should and then have leftovers for days. I do like leftovers, but, mostly I miss my son learning from Grandpa, how to cook and cut a turkey. Grandma taught my son how to set a beautiful table and was a good taste tester to the food they prepared. My son and I also participated in the "turkey trot" locally and sometimes my mom and dad and a few friends would join me. I remember one year in particular that Caine, my son that has passed in 2018, decided to run with me for the annual turkey trot. It had changed locations this particular year and had some uphill running sections. Caine took off and ran ahead of me and waited at the finish line. I pushed myself and when finished we celebrated with a drink and some food they offered. The air was crisp and it was such a positive fun run. We then headed back home to finish up any cooking and head over to my parents for the meal and some good quality family time. After Caine's death in 2018, I did not participate in any holiday, run, event, and laid very low. I kept to myself trying to figure out this life and how to move forward. Then Covid hit. in 2020 my spouse and I cooked our own thanksgiving meal and I went for a long walk solo, we ate and watched a movie and spent a lot of time alone and separate from family, which was actually ok for me. This year, my mom made a comment to me while we were shopping. She said, I was sad last year putting ornaments on the tree by myself and she wanted me to help her put ornaments on the tree. I got a tree for the first time since my son passed in 2018 last year- 2020. My husband and I got a permit and cut a small tree down to put up in our living room. We decided we wanted to display all our sons ribbons and medals from his ski races and put on the tree. It is very emotional for me and I am so thankful for all the memories from Caine's ski races, traveling, and friendships we made along his journey. I also know the holiday season doesnt feel "Merry, Bright, Happy, or anything wonderful. It is a reminder that my son is no longer with me. I have no other children and will never be a grandmother. I have my parents left and do want to make the rest of their lives peaceful and good, yet honor my pain and grief. So my advice is to follow the guide- There are NO RULES and you can make it what you want it to be! May 2021 leave gracefully and may 2022 come in and provide some change!

Tennis for Awareness 2021

 We have exceeded our goal to raise $4000.00 for two scholarships to two HAHA graduates of 2022. We have raised $6000.00 dollars from this past weekends tournament. The remaining money will go back into the foundation for an upgraded website and reserve for next year's tournament. Thank you to all of you who donated, participated, and thank you to the sponsors Alpine Bank and Trendsetters Custom Homes. Thank you for the donations from Sue Geist, Treadz, Jens Bars, Crown Mountain Tennis Courts, and for the volunteers Beth and Lisa who helped with check ins and brackets.

 10/1 Friday 5pm-10pm

Glenwood Springs Rec Center

Kick Off Party for the Tennis Tournament 10/2 & 10/3.

Treadz (Jon & Erin) donated the courts to this event.

Cainegel Connection Foundation will provide a cooler with ice and drinks and apps.

Bring a donation and lets have some fun play.

You do not need to RSVP, just come join some open fun play.

Bring your tennis gear and some balls.

Thank you!

Cainegels Connection Inc

Tips for Parents and Teens


  To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that prisoner was you. ― Lewis B. Smedes, author and theologian Caine would want us to f...